Either Side

by Merival

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1.
Patience 03:31
one moment along a dusty measurement of time I know that I must continue searching in my own mind if I know that I know that I know that I know if I grow the way it's shown to me then all that it is, and all it shall be is all I can't claim to see what I am but holding too tight leaves an empty hand I want a chest like the clearest lake I want a spade and a vine on a stake and a practice of patience to carry, to take
2.
what am I left with if I throw out everything I don't like? everything I don't love? I see it in other people, I guess there's supposed to be some value to what you do all day I wanna grow some more plants and that's a good enough reason to keep going for now but imagine if I really knew how much good was actually in the world how much love there really is me and my friends are still kids and we don't know, and maybe we never will maybe we never will I've read to many thoughtful books to be surprised by this uselessness but then here we are I've said too many thoughtless things to be surprised that they're haunting me but that's life with a big mouth perhaps the greatest myth is that you'll ever grow up and feel in control for more than one week so why do they tell it to us? me and my friends are in love with eachother but sometimes love makes you mean me and my lovers are friends with eachother but sometimes the friendship's not clean me and my mind are at war half the time and I wonder if there's another way only so many repetitions of telling yourself day to day me and my friends are in love with eachother but sometimes love makes you mean holding our hands in eachother's, we try to get by, and we try to stay clean
3.
The Knack 01:53
you know I'm always the last one at the party I can hardly bear to go home I never knew how much I need from these people sustaining, throwing me bones kiss my cheek and know that I'm around two more weeks I'm probably going down how long I've spent alone thought I'd never lose the knack distance shortens around me am I giving enough back?
4.
Either Side 04:46
going to my house gonna feel good in my room gonna wipe out the other worlds no one's around in a minute I'll open the blinds something reminds me to try maybe I will let go of some heavy expectations maybe I won't the people with the power are a wet duvet in summer and I'm choking on my doubt that a change is coming in time to help the ones who need it most I can't be the one who's always hiding in my room, with my face turned down I have the eyes to see I could be one of them on either side I could be one of them I could be one of them on either side I could be one of them

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depression songs from 2019 (minus The Knack - anxiety song from 2017) ~ learning to heal and be bigger than myself ~ some of these songs can maybe speak to others in a similar place

thank you times one thousand million for listening <3

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released April 24, 2020

Anna Horvath - vocals, guitar, synth, piano, bass on 3 & 4
Sam Gleason - guitar, synth, bass on 2
Evan Cartwright - drums

engineered, mixed, and produced by Sam Gleason
mastered by Heather Kirby

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